shucks shucks shucks shucks SHUCKS! she is really stressifying la.. ): not happy, nope.

i wish that i could have nothing to do and nothing under my resposibility. then i wouldn't have to care about other people's feelings or what they think or say about me. but, no. i'm stuck in this world where everyone looks and stares and says something and then they point and criticize. ): STOP IT! really. it's bugging me, majorly.

oh anyway, i failed my first physics test, failed my first chinese test and studied for my first chem test and SS test too! (: i'm happy about the studying part.. the two fails are.. well, just part and parcel of my acedemic life. so anyway, i did notes for SS and i studied for chem so i feel good cos the test was do-able which means that i'm studying right. right? right. so yes, rach was uber shocked when she saw my notes cos i'm the type who doesn't even give half a hoot about SS.. see girl? i'm a changed person.. i'm a good kid now. hahaha...

prayer meeting in about 45mins. honestly speaking, i don't feel like going cos i'm super tired and stress awaits me. yeah... i just wanna go sleep right now. 4.5hours of sleep is not enough. heck, even 8hours is not enough. i miss my 12am-3pm sleeps.. ahhhh.... holidays!

baby said that he'd tutor me if i went for church camp this year.. so, i'm thinking that i might go after all.. (: see? because of YOU okay jarrold ng jian liang... you'd better be grateful.. becuase of this, you must tutor me at Port Dickson and you must carry all my books, thank you very much.. haha... i love you (together with all your idiosyncrisies and egocentricism)!!

i think i'm a generally retarded person. yes i am.

okay, random. who cares?

I WANT TO SLEEP AND TAN! why can't the O's be over? it's another 9 more months (minus 2 days) and it's so so far away! this feels like being pregnant (not like i've tried being preggy before but you know what i mean.. get it? 9 months?)

so yes, anyway.. hall 3B awaits me.. i hope baby and gaius comes soon so i have people to talk to.. the people around me now are not exactly conversational.. haha... okie dokeries.. i shall go do that research on BGR for the debate, and go gobble up another one of my daddy's chocolates..
oh did i tell you? I FEEL FAT AGAIN! oh hallelujah.. this feels normal.. but i don't wanna feel fat, so this means more jogging and less eating for me! (:



choodles!



(: this smile's for you. i think.