so now i'm not allowed to go out, not even for the last time to send sam and puppy off. i'm sorry guys, i'd have to miss all the fun, AGAIN.

puppy, have fun at NS and whatever you do, remember that we all love you tons ok? you must miss me and give me a hug when you come out in two weeks.. meanwhile, i can't go for dinner to say good bye, but enjoy yourself and then go into camp and have a blast! :) hugs and love!

hey coral.. thanks for the note and stuff.. it's nice to know that there are people watching out for me and yup, i'll keep on keeping on! haha... love!

i've been trying to get a tan lately but the sun over at katong ain't so hot.. literally. haha. i need to out-tan my tank top tan from the last cell outing. it's quite disgusting. it's been two weeks of tanning now and it's still there. how annoying. and the pool's the only place where i get to get away from house. not very far, no doubt, but at least it's not the house. and i have to tan alone. wahlaueh.

i don't know how much longer of this freedom-less-ness i can take. it's really starting to take a toll on me. and my parents have been so irritating. tension at home runs high. suck. and they keep scolding me for every single little thing. nothing i do can ever make them happy, nothing i ever do is enough to fulfill their expectations. so annoying. grace is not all happy noddle huh? dammit.

i can't wait for the O's to be over. they can't keep me down much when i'm in poly right? i pray not.

aiya. it's only been a week into 2007 and i'm so tired already. and school hasn't even started proper. oh crap. crap, crap, crap, crap, crap.

i think he heard when gaius was yelling out for all to hear. so now i think he's avoiding me, or sort of. sigh. die la. there goes another close guy friend to stupid things like "love". i don't even "love" (or like like) him. stupid la.

i'm swearing off guys til i'm 18. seriously. guys = major trouble and irritation.

lalalala......................................................................................................... :) i feel damn weird now la. really really weird. i'm like, irritated, sad, angry, annoyed, stressed-ish yet happy. haha. i think i'm delirious.

PITCH '07 is really stressful especially when you have team members who don't really do much. if we're going on stage and looking like complete fools, then i quit. i'd rather not do it than to do a lousy job.

literature presentation is stressful too. but well, that's because i don't know what to do.

Amaths is stressful cos i don't know how to do the homework.

Emaths is stressful cos i've got shit for a maths teacher.

School is stressful cos my shitty maths teacher is also my form teacher and she hates me and she's on my back. and that's WAAAAAY annoying.

Friends are stressful cos i only want platonic relationships to be present for now, and the thing is, everyone is getting hooked up with someone or another.

Parents are stressful cos they've turned the house into a battle field so i must be real careful not to set off any landmines. plus, i have no freedom, and they're annoying.

i just realised, that i'm quite annoyed. everything in life is so annoying. oh gosh.

i need a hug. no wait, three hugs. or.. twelve hugs. okay, maybe thirty-four hugs. okay la... alot alot alot of hugs. anyone willing? oh wait, even if you were willing, i won't be abe to see you guys anyway. at least not til wednesday then friday then saturday then sunday. but my friends will be ditching me on saturday for YA. dammit! roar. yawp. crap. grace shut up.